As we all know, today marks the 10
th anniversary of a devastating attack on our nation!
I am sure everyone remember exactly where they were and what they were doing! On that day I had to explain to my beautiful innocent 3 year old that there is evil in this world!
We had just arrived to England, that the land that we would call home for the next 7 years. In fact we were still in Temporary housing off base. I was nursing our baby, while our 1 year old and 3 year old boys were playing with
their toys!
Brian called and informed me that an airplane had crashed into the a building in NY and I should turn on the TV. In disbelief, I turned the TV on so I could see for myself. Within a minute I watched live as the second plane hit! I just sat there an bawled forgetting about my sweet babies in the room. Hayden walked up to me and asked me why I was crying! On that day, September 11, 2001, I had to explain to him that there were bad people in this world who wanted to hurt others. Content with that answer he went back to playing and I went back to the TV where I stayed glued for hours! I knew I should get up and do something to take my mind off this dreaded situation but my legs wouldn't move! I just sat there!
I wasn't sure if I was happy or scared to be living outside of the United States! When Brian came home from work that day he informed me that the base stores where closing and that he was off of work for a while. When he finally returned to work, he would have to go in civilian clothing! We talked about keeping ourselves safe and not drawing attention to ourselves.
I felt so alone, so scared, so worried about what was going to happen to us! "Don't draw attention to yourself". Ya, OK, I had three kids under the age of 3 and I couldn't even begin to fake an English accent if I wanted to!
We were all ready living simply as we only had a dorm sized fridge. We were making stops at the
commissary every few days to get groceries... but now that
commissary would be closed
indefinitely.
I knew fall was coming and we had been living out of suitcases for a couple months so I only had summer clothes for the boys. I kicked myself for not getting warmer clothes for the boys while the BX was open! Thankfully Brian asked around and we heard of a store in Cambridge called H&M. We went and I bought each of the boys a couple pairs of jeans and a couple long sleeved shirts that they could wear under
their summer T-shirts! (To this day, they still just through on a long sleeve shirt before putting on
their T-shirts in the winter.) By the way, H&M remained my favorite Britsh store to shop in!
We adjusted and we survived that days following September 11
th!
In the aftermath, our nation was informed that just under 4,000 people lost
their lives on 4 different crashes! I was relieved as on the day of the attacks it was announced that 50,000 people worked in the twin towers alone so the
devastation could have been much worse! Now, I realize that there were still 4,000 heartbroken mother's who cried
endlessly for
their children! I know there were still 4,000
families who were destroyed that day! But I am so thankfully that it wasn't 50,000 families!
Yesterday as I watched a
slide show in our Memorial at Church I was so saddened by the pictures of that day. The heartbreak and terror in the eyes of those we survived the attack. My heart physically ached! Then in an instant I became angry and thought horrible wicked thoughts over the men who planned this attack!
Apparently I am not filled as much love and grace as I thought! I am still angry that a group of people planned this attack with full intent to cause even more damage then what happened that day!
Over the last 10 years I have clung to 2 Corinthians 7:14 "If My people, who are called by My name, will humble themselves and pray, and seek
My face and turn from
their wicked ways, then I will hear from Heaven and I will forgive
their sin and I will heal
their land". This verse has been a lifeline for me! I pray for our nation! I pray that God will protect us from ever experiencing another attack like this! I pray that God will protect us from another attack! I pray that God will comfort those who lost so much! I pray that our nation will turn from our wicked ways and return to the God fearing nation we were founded as! I pray that any future attacks will be thwarted! I pray that God will reveal himself to those who hate Him and he will change
their hearts!!
No, I shall NEVER forget!!